I had my natural child birth with the exception of cervidil to induce labor and zofran at the very end of my labor to help with the nausea. No pain meds at all. So those endorphins are working their magic. I thought my labor was going to last forever when I was checked at 4 pm and still only dilated between a 3 and 4. My doctor was in surgery all day and finally arrived at around 6 pm. By that time I was exhausted and dreading the thought of having my water broken and the contractions getting any more intense. She checked me and I was dilated to a 9. I cried from relief when she told me. My doctor left to go change into her scrubs for the delivery and the nurses prepared the room.
I have had quite a bit of pride when it comes to my child baring capabilities. This is my third natural child birth. I thought it was going to be a breeze but as I'm recalling it now, I'm trying to hold back my tears. When Dr. Ramos came back from changing into her scrubs, she told me to go ahead and start pushing. She said there was just a little lip of the cervix that needed to be pushed aside as I tried to push his head out. Dr. Ramos applied pressure trying to push that lip aside and it felt like that extra little bit of pressure was a huge amount of force fighting against every effort I made to push the little guy out. I felt like I was fighting a battle that couldn't be won. I said out loud, "I can't do it." Even when I said it, I knew I didn't have a choice and that I had to do it and I felt so silly for saying that I couldn't. Dr. Ramos then informed me that he was coming out sunny side up. I guess that explains all the leg numbness and lower back pain.
So I finally pushed his head out and the umbilical cord is wrapped around his neck twice. John was so panicked that he grabbed the cord to help the doctor remove it from the baby's neck. I pushed him out the rest of the way and the nurse put him on my chest and I started sobbing. They I heard Dr. Ramos say, "This is the luckiest baby!" She repeated it three times and then showed me the knot in the umbilical cord. I don't know if it awes everyone else as much as it awes me. My miracle...my boy who has already survived so much. I feel so blessed to be entrusted with his little life. This is why he is Ezekiel. He is our little miracle who is strengthened by God to survive and to thrive.
|I'm crying from joy in this picture.|
|The knot in the umbilical cord|
|The proud brothers and sister|
Tobias, Ephraim, Daphne and Ezekiel Raymond