I thought I had prepared myself to be bald again. There are just some things you can't prepare for. I was definitely not prepared to mourn the loss of my hair again. I thought it was old news...been there...done that. Not so for me. I am sad to have to be bald again. Even though I didn't like my short hair at all, I loved the fact that I was no longer looking like a cancer patient. Tonight I shaved my head again and as I was shaving it I found myself welling up with tears. So silly... to get choked up over hair... especially when I had so little of it.
I haven't updated my blog in a while. It takes energy and I have to prioritize what I spend my energy on. This past week I have spent my energy on hand washing, disinfecting, and keeping all the sickies away from me and Zeek. We both stayed healthy until I got my immune system back on track. Last Thursday and Friday I got my Neupogen shot to boost my immune system. I had my blood work done on Friday afternoon and my counts were back up. Sunday I got a sore throat and a little bit of nasal congestion. So I have a cold but I didn't get it as bad as everyone else and it wasn't bad enough to prevent my treatment on Monday. Three taxol treatments done. Nine to go.