I don't have cancer in my lung. My oncologist called me the same day of the PET scan to inform me of the good news. I was so relieved that I cried. So...why has it taken me so long to get on my computer and share the good news? I am so emotionally exhausted and burnt out on cancer that I am just completely unmotivated to talk about it.
This recent "scare" was not actually as scary as I expected it to be. I continued to go on with my daily life as if it wasn't even happening. There was such a huge difference in the way it felt this time as opposed to when I was first diagnosed. I have become used to the fear that comes along with a cancer diagnosis. It's just a part of my life now. I have to think about cancer on a regular basis with blood work, scans, and appointments. I've done this all before so cancer no longer scares me. Death scares me though. There were a couple times where I looked at the kids and the thought of their lives without a mom made me weep. But I don't need to think about that because I do not have cancer in my lung. We don't know what it is but I'll be going to a pulmonologist for a consultation. My oncologist didn't appear to be concerned and if he's not concerned then I'm not concerned.
Thank you for your continued prayers. I have definitely felt the blessings pouring down on me.